still

sometimes I like to be just still.

No noise. No people…..just me.

Not depression. Not anxiety. Well maybe anxiety. You see there are just sometimes when people are just too much for me. And I just hide. Or I lash out.

Lashing out seems to be the go to emotion for me. Thats all I’ll say about that.

But back to the people thing. Its actually a common thing – its called being introverted.

I used to think there was something wrong with me. I used to get so anxious around people that for a while i thought I was broken. Someone told me that being introverted was being selfish – and I needed to stop being selfish to be a good Christian.

But thats not what being introverted means.

It means that you need times of solitude to regain your strength. It means that there are times people overwhelm you. It means? You need time with God.

Stay in that secret place, till the surrounding noises begin to fade out of your heart, till a sense of God’s presence has enveloped you. Listen for His inward voice till you learn to recognize it

A.W. tozer

Take a look at Elijah in 1 Kings 19. He had just made a huge impact on the Israelites about God – killing 450 of Queen Jezebel’s priests – and he delved into a deep depression.

He ran. Fast. And hid. And then? He cried out to God.

Then God came and ministered to him.

Take that time you need friends – and cry out to Jesus when things get too much. God wants us to take time to be alone. To decompress or take some me time or a time out or whatever you want to call it. He just wants to be with you.

He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High

Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.

Psalm 91:1