so yeah. This aint fun

So i hit another ….. thing in my fight. My heart has apparently has had some damage from covid. Before it was just a possibility – now its a definite confirmation. My cholesterol is high – probably from my thyroid being messed up. So yeah. This aint fun.

I know He is in control but for real tho – i am so freaking tired of being the sick one.

I’m tired of one thing after another.

I’m tired of sitting here and thinking “this is it. This is what kills me”

Okay….i know.

But you know what? I am not really worried. I know I am in God’s hands.

I have over and over said to the Lord: not my will but yours be done.

And I mean it.

So while I am sick and tired of being sick and tired? I am gonna sit here and worship God.

Why?

Cause this year has been so freaking difficullt.

My daughter.

my surgery.

Covid.

my thyroid levels bottoming out.

sorry I had a moment.

Its been difficult. And while I dont understand AT ALL why God has put me through it? I will praise Him. Not because I’m sick – not even close. But I will praise Him cause this whole sucky year? He has gotten us through. He has blessed us immensely.

He has and will always be there.

I will praise Him always.

Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the [a]fowler

And from the perilous pestilence.

He shall cover you with His feathers,

And under His wings you shall take refuge;

His truth shall be your shield and [b]buckler.

You shall not be afraid of the terror by night,

Nor of the arrow that flies by day,

Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,

Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.

Psalm 91: 3-6

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