no. I dont identify as a Chrisitan

I just need to write. Writing just…..it helps me see things. So? hi. so I was talking with someone about christians. Yeah it was my brother. And it came about that he believes that christians are just fake. And that made me think about my relationship with God. Cause it should. right? Am I a Christian? Do I identify as a christian? No? Yes? What is a christian? i need to write cause I dont know what to think.

I know there is a lot out there to confuse us. This is a time where the enemy is gonna trip us up. Big time. So doesnt that mean he’s gonna use us to trip up people too?

I try to be as real as possible. But i struggle. Big time. Take a look at my last video devotional – I …. its….. loving the unlovable its difficult. I dont always like people.

Shoo….I dont even have a Jesus bumper sticker cause well.

I suffer from road rage.

There are a lot of people that I dont like and I’m one of those people who wear their emotions on their faces. Its a blessing and a curse. So …. do I hurt my witness by this?

wait … does my struggle make me less than a christian?

What does Christian literally mean: relating to or professing christianity or its teachings.

Ummmmm…………….

we’ll have to leave that to another day. cause there is just too much for me to say.

I’m a fallen person. I’m not perfect. I try to love those around me – i try to be an example of God’s love. But i fail. big time.

There are a lot of things I could say about christians now a days – dude. God has truly been dealing with me about this. But arent they just like me? a human trying to be more like a perfect God?

Shouldnt I give them slack – like He does me?

If thats the case – im not fake. I am a follower of Jesus Christ. I am not perfect – so far from it. But i do pray that God uses me and my struggles so that people know:

You are not alone

and

God loves you no matter what.

He’s waiting to talk to you. Hes waiting for you to talk to Him. start today.

⁹ The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some count slackness, but is longsuffering toward ^[c]us, not willing that any should perish but that all should come to repentance.

2 Peter 3:9